End of the Proverbial Rope

Yeah I know, things have been kind of quiet here at Graceland lately. Our frustration with The Wait is at an all-time high. I am actually starting to see it get to my husband, who is the level-headed, don't-let-it-get-to-you, there's-nothing-you-can-do-about-it, one in our family. When we were preparing our Dossier, we expected to receive Grace's referral in June or July, and here we are along with so many others who just don't know when we will see our precious daughter. To use a term I hate: This Sucks.

Along with pursuing the traditional China adoption program, we are also in line for a Waiting Child referral with our agency. We've had some questions about what this means and how it works. To put it simply, we could get the call any day from our agency saying they have a file of a Waiting Child for us to review. If for some reason CCAI doesn't receive a file from the CCAA with the age and minor medical conditions we have requested, we will remain in the traditional program and receive a referral whenever those with a December 5th log-in-date get matched. So, it could be any day now or it could be next year. We just don't know when, but we do know that what's meant to be, will be.

I would have to say that this is the lowest we've felt since beginning this journey to our daughter. But there's no backing down now...She means everything to us. We've taken the path of least resistance in most situations in our lives and we're not about to do so this time. All of this hurt and frustration will be erased once that magical day comes when we see our daughter, and we know that. In the meantime, we're dangling at the end of our ropes and we're trying desperately to pull ourselves back up. And we will. For Grace.