I Feel Blessed

The other day I was feeling a little down because our adoption is at a point where things have slowed down a bit. I think about Grace almost constantly it seems. I think things like: Has she been born yet? If she has, where is she? What will she look like? What will her baby noises sound like? Will she ever know how much she is already loved?

So after feeling discouraged for a while and feeling like it's going to be an eternity until Gracie comes home, I realized that I already am blessed. I am blessed to be married to a man that I'm in love with and vice-versa. I am blessed because our daughter will have a great daddy - one that loves and adores her. I already see it in him. When he talks about our adoption or our future daughter, he just beams. Although I may get frustrated once in a while when I am the one doing most of the work for our adoption, in the final analysis, that won't matter. His love for Grace is all that will matter.

I feel blessed to have supportive friends and family that are patiently awaiting for Grace. I am blessed to be able to afford to adopt Grace (well, barely afford). I am blessed to know that she will have a nice home to live in filled with love. I am blessed that Tom and I both have jobs to be able to provide for her. I'm even blessed that she will have two wonderful dogs sleeping by her bed every night.

Most of all, I am blessed to already have Grace in my heart. It's such an odd feeling to have such a strong love for a child you've never met. But I do...I love her.